Blank

          It is for the first time that i didn't made any observation and simply presenting all the readers with the observation of the state of mind. The thing which I am going to talk about, is a situation for which I myself is searching for an answer. So I do request to comment with whatever statement which you think is the explanation. There are always these awkward movement of life when you feel lonely. You virtually think that you are not interested in any of the things to do around and you are just blankly sitting or lying staring at something without actually seeing that object. However if you just try to do something in such situation you might get so involved that you even lose yourself at any point of time. But we are demotivated actually to do anything. So we don't do anything. Its like life and death are similar things. All the things that are going around are worthless and the things you do according to your schedule seems to be really refreshing but that to while doing it and not after it. Its like a vicious cycle, whatever you think will make you go into such state even to a very deeper extent. So practically you are also not thinking anything. So its like you are blank and everything is blank. Well, its very hard to comment on such wierd situation but you need to clearly believe that such things do happen. Its like you are seaching yourself in others and get hurted each time because you don't exist anywhere. You express something or for that matter anything to anyone, and then refret that why you did so, because they made the thing more worse. Its when you started feeling that where should I go, what should I do, whom should I talk to; so that I should get some sort of peace to my mind so that I can do what I aimed for in the life. Even people who said that I am always with you have to be made realised that I need you, and that I am hanging over the hell without support. And also that where should I go where I get relieve from whole of the heck of the thing going on in my mind. Actually mind is blank but still something annoying is going on with the fragments of thoughts slashing against each other and negatively claming the mind without mere existence of peace. You even started to feel like better were those non-living things you made friends for the case that no one is with you. All those people with whom you have your expressions linked with, are disconnected with they themselves cutting those delicate intricacies of connnection that used to exist somewhere in the past. You feel like this in the state what is called as deep loneliness where you want but don't have.