Saturday, 30 July 2016

Blank

          It is for the first time that i didn't made any observation and simply presenting all the readers with the observation of the state of mind. The thing which I am going to talk about, is a situation for which I myself is searching for an answer. So I do request to comment with whatever statement which you think is the explanation. There are always these awkward movement of life when you feel lonely. You virtually think that you are not interested in any of the things to do around and you are just blankly sitting or lying staring at something without actually seeing that object. However if you just try to do something in such situation you might get so involved that you even lose yourself at any point of time. But we are demotivated actually to do anything. So we don't do anything. Its like life and death are similar things. All the things that are going around are worthless and the things you do according to your schedule seems to be really refreshing but that to while doing it and not after it. Its like a vicious cycle, whatever you think will make you go into such state even to a very deeper extent. So practically you are also not thinking anything. So its like you are blank and everything is blank. Well, its very hard to comment on such wierd situation but you need to clearly believe that such things do happen. Its like you are seaching yourself in others and get hurted each time because you don't exist anywhere. You express something or for that matter anything to anyone, and then refret that why you did so, because they made the thing more worse. Its when you started feeling that where should I go, what should I do, whom should I talk to; so that I should get some sort of peace to my mind so that I can do what I aimed for in the life. Even people who said that I am always with you have to be made realised that I need you, and that I am hanging over the hell without support. And also that where should I go where I get relieve from whole of the heck of the thing going on in my mind. Actually mind is blank but still something annoying is going on with the fragments of thoughts slashing against each other and negatively claming the mind without mere existence of peace. You even started to feel like better were those non-living things you made friends for the case that no one is with you. All those people with whom you have your expressions linked with, are disconnected with they themselves cutting those delicate intricacies of connnection that used to exist somewhere in the past. You feel like this in the state what is called as deep loneliness where you want but don't have.

Friday, 22 July 2016

Paradoxical expression

          Many remarkable things occur in the world. Even our birth is one of the most remarkable events that occured on this earth. However it is very essential for everyone one of us to always remember a very simple fact that we are nothing but a very small picture amongst all the great remarkable things which occur everyday. Well to understand the inferiorty complex being mentioned here, just try to imagine the earth in its original shape and compare it with our shape. Here you can very well appreciate that we are very tiny part of this earth and there are many like us. This fact was made to be realised by me by a very good teacher of mine whom I encountered during my college life. Thus, we should never forget that we are nothing but a very tiny part of something or say some process and we are destined to do our job whose completion will make us a bit more of what of tiny contribution we are contributing by not doing anything. Well this has nothing to do with expression.
          After a rush over the tiny lesson, lets move on to the topic. Well, humans are very well given the property or characteristic of expression. If we try to think so far human are know to be the most complex of all organisms as they are bestowed with a brain superior to all the other beings in this world which enables them to perform higher functions of the same. They can think, act, react and many more such things with the help of this brain. Well if we try to think a little bit more, how are these things possible for our brain to be performed? Well the same question was responsible for many studies to be carried out to compare what is difference in human brain and brain of other living beings. Many studies were also done to elicit the structure and function of various parts of brain. In this hustle and bustle of studies there was another science which was rapidly emerging which resulted from one such study known as psychiatry. As here I am talking about expressions, by which  I mean to emphasize upon emotions. Well, emotions also are one of the greatest issue to the mankind. Because they are the culprit which might even ruin or even make a day. Many scientists tried to explain them and many theories were thus proposed. One such theory was proposed by Dr. Sigmund Freud. He being known as father of psychiatry have given the concept of various levels of mind. According to him there are three levels of mind. The level in which we are in present is the conscious mind. Another is pre-conscious mind. The one which has memory component and helps us recall or remember without using conscious efforts. And the last but the most important is the unconscious mind. Which is the one about which no one knows about. Which is also reponsible for processing data and decide what should affect and what should not. The things affecting us manifest via emotions. The other aspect for the unconscious mind can be understood by a simple analogy of an office where unconscious mind is the boss and the conscious mind is like a labourer. Unconscious mind sends impulse or information to the conscious mind which then acts for the subjective realisation of different aspects responsible for different types of response to different stimuli. Unconscious mind not only gives impulse but it also acts as an effective receptor for variety of stimuli or say information which different sensory organs perceive. Thus on having a look over the overall process we may be able to find that unconscious mind is the centre of everything.
          Lets talk about different aspects of this mind. How do you think this subconscious mind develops then? Lets think how things change from the point of our birth till present. When we are born everything is developing i.e. all the minds are getting trained to have thier own unique subjective variation. Conscious mind did not know what information he should provide to the unconscious mind and unconscious mind did not knoe what response he should give. Slowly the conscious mind starts developing. His own sensory system becomes so imperative that he slowly started seeing light source, then coloured objects, he feels touch of different people and tries to differentiate them as familier ones, started hearing different sounds and slowly starts gazing towards the source of sound. Unconscious mind starts getting these varied impulses and then being unknown to how to respond it starts developing some basic reponses crying and smiling. In this way all these components of mind gets exposed to different stimuli and leading to their own development. Well thus most important thing which then decide personality which is the combination of subconscious mind and unconscious mind is influenced by the parenting atmosphere or say by the parents. Well lets have an example here, consider a boy whose father was a very studious guy making him an introvert and unsocial personality doing well with his business which he has set up now and his mother who was totally opposite to what his father was, socially very active and an extrovert but very overprotective about her son. Lets try to figure out the mind development of this fellow. Well as his mother was overprotective its kind of decreasing different types of stimuli in amount from occuring in a way making that person away or making him inexperienced about different response he can provide to various stimuli which can occur in his further life. On the other hand, his father being an introvert does not like many people at his place making this guy also an introvert which makes him not able to behave socially with other people. So what do you think how that guy becomes. Lets consider that if he left his home for studying or acquiring graduation to a place far away from his home. Now he is free, he is open to every stimuli he can receive. Now the things which may occur depends totally on stimuli without any influence from parents. Positive stimuli will thus cheer him up however, negative stimuli will surely make him fall and again adapt and live. Thus now its totally in his hand what person he becomes a good or a bad one. As we all know good and bad are relative terms it depends on subjective definitions but one thing we should also not forget that whatever we are made by our parents trains our mind to that extent that its very difficult to change and left always as a sign of non- adaptive behaviour or say basal behaviour. Thus this is how complex the development of our mind is. Well now it is very easy aftera lots of explanation the point of paradoxical expression.
          Lets consider a constant amount of stress of any sorts occuring constantly over the conscious mind. So after a huge explanation I guess you will figure out that our unconscious mind will try to adapt to these changes. Well two things can occur during the course of adaptation. The person can either remove the stress by acting on that direction or he can just let that go away and adapting in a way that it affects him. What I am more interested is about the second thing. You know we do this thing everyday. We don't consider expression as a part of daily life. What I have stated above is the same fact of ignoring things which are affecting us. It is not actually ignoring but more of adapting because we think that time makes things subtle but we totally forget that adaptation by unconscious mind continuously may impair certain things. So guys it is like either you express consciously or your unconscious mind will express it in other way. I call it paradoxical expression. It is the way of expressing suppressed thing in a physical form or manifest form. I have many examples for this. The person who are emotionally sensitive are seem to more suffering from any hypersensitivity state of they didn't express. A person who is forced, not to do the things he want and if he didn't express may make him aggressive and irritative. A person having bad childhood experiences are always introvert as they didn't say that to anybody. And such many many examples are there.
          You may think that whatever I told you might be vague but let me tell you that I myself have been through all these upto to the level that I was getting palpitations and chest pain but it was like everything subsided when I expressed. For the matter of fact, that expression took almost 5 hrs to be completely not bothering me. You know all these things were also understood by most of the people and have led to the emergence of new concept called as emotional intelligence. So guys don't forget to express each and everything to your people whom you trust the most otherwise you may even not know that your unconscious mind is paradoxically expressing. Keep smiling.

Friday, 15 July 2016

Depth of field

             Somethings there are things in which we easily entrap. These things might be certain emotions, certain unacceptable things or events or even sometimes we ourselves. It pretty difficulty to understand how one can get trapped in himself due to ownself but if we try to think we just with a moment of thoughtfulness can enumerate a lot of moments in which these absurd things may happen. To understand the depth of how we entrap in something take an example of the picture which i have posted here. Try to find out the depth of the field which the camera had beautifully captured. Keep on viewing the same thing and you will come to know this simple fact how things happen. You will eventually observe that you usually think the event or the condition which is bothering you the most and unless you do not self remind yourself that you were reading someone's blog and you need to complete that reading part, you will keep on thinking about it. Well taking advantage of the above concept, I will like to share one of the things which had efficiently entrapped me and obviously had bothered me upto a very great deal.
               Well, the incidence started with myself living in a community where lies plenty of quacks and people who read and believe in horoscopy. I am not offending anyone regarding their belief but surely wanted to highlight that here things aren't possible to occur without horoscopy. People who have matching horoscopic profiles will only marry....married people of specific horoscopes will have a children of a specific horoscopic profile....and many such believes are ruling the minds presently in the community I live.  I tried to look for their science behind these things and i came to know that the stars which are present in the sky and their positions are responsible for how the person would be today and what all consequences he will have today, precisely saying presumptive future. What happened is one fine day my parents took me to such a pratitioner of horoscopy popularly known by something wale baba. Actually the thing was I didn't believe in all these things however i went there with them for their sake only. That person whosoever it was said that your son has some stars at wrong position and that he should not marry anyone as per his will. I was shocked to hear that. Though I was pretty  critic of all these things...I was not able to protest this fact due to my parents and this very thing which he said started entrapping me in myself. All my thought process, my emotions; everything was entrapping me in myself. I lost social behaviour with all girls and these things were eating up me inside. I then started compressing or in a way started ignoring this very fact. According to Father of psychiatry, emotions or bothering things if ignored without being expressed effectively may manifest physically. This very thing also started to express itself in my physical being. I started getting palpitations, sweating, restlessness etc.which was not getting cured even on medical treatment. I then decided to express these things to my parents and that very day everything became drastically normal and yes it felt like I was entrapped in a very deep depth of field and was been drawn awaken with very ropeof expression of thought.
              What i learnt was never restrain yourself from expressing. Express everything every emotion. And be happy never go too deep into the depth of field because you may never known even your own horrors may even lie there.

Stay happy stay blessed.